The Worst April Fools

Yeah. April Fools should be like this picture. Like freak people outs and fools of joke. Those things should be on April fools. But, Golly... WHAT A DAY..! 

First thing just happened. I was came back from the Ralphs with Chris, and he wanted to just help me to carry all those stupid crap load of grocery. But he could not found the parking spot, so he park at the disadvantage parking for like not even 5 min. But he's car almost got towed, but he had to pay bunch of money... I feel horrible. PEOPLE! THERE ARE NO DISADVANTAGE PEORSON ON OUR APRTMENT! FREAKIN DELETE THAT STUPID SPOT! USELESS!!!!

Second, I did not sleep for almost none last night, so I am so freakin tired and now I cannot sleep. I was thinking about whole bunch of April Fools Joke for Tomorrow, oops, Today, but now I don't think I can use that anymore. This is so gay. I am kind of sick, tired, and now angry. What the crap.

Thirdly, I don't even know my visa thing is going well or not, but well I believe God will take care of it, because I cannot do anything about this. 

And Finally, I am having hard time because of my parents expectation. Since I cannot achieve their expectation, I know I will get stressed and burned out every single freakin day. I am the first born of first born kind of thing. Every single family member have mountain high expectation to me. It is really hard to achieve the goal they made for me. And they don't understand who am I, and what am I going through. What am I? Am I freakin Robot? WHAT KIND OF LIFE AM I LIVING?

What a day, The April fools is not even started yet. It is 12:41 in the morning. I started this day with whole bunch of thinking and some horrible stuff happen. I feel so bad now. and I am so freakin tired. 

I just did my QT, It actually helped me and my anger, but now I am so depressed. I am so depressed. I am not going to say I hate my life or anything, because I believe God will fix my feeling and every single situation in good way. But, I wish everything will be alright in soon. Because, finally, I am at the point that is about to explode...  Jesus, Please come or help me. PLEASE GOD, SHOW ME THE WAY!! I AM LOST!!

"But you, O Lord, be not far off; O my Strength, come quickly to help me."

                                                                 -Psalm 22:19