Things I need.

List of things I need right now.

1. New glasses

2. New Monitor.

3. Travel to somewhere

4. Rock Concert.

5. New Microphone 

6. Guitar String

7. The new Greenday album 21th Century Breakdown

8. New song.

9. REAL Freedom.

9 Random stuff

1. I went to small road trip with Julie and Rachael. It was awesome time.

    I talk a lot, so they called me Im talkative guy. hahaha, I am talkative guy. 

    Yet, inside of the car, I thought a lot also. It was awesome time.

    I praise at the beach, ate some chinese food(I think it's real Chinese food).

    It was relaxing, It was nice, and I figure out that my leg is gigantic.

    Thank you God.

2. I notice that I am still live in my own little Neverland. Golly, I am now 21.

    Grow up Donghee!

3. Thursday open chaple Praise was such a blessing. I felt that God is really using me

    I had some tough time, but after praise, God turn my mourning into dancing. :)

4. Start with Yesterday, Dark Chocolate Crew started Quiet Time together. 

    Now we are using same booklet and stuff. I wish through this, everyone grow spiritually

    and mentally.

5. I wish I can praise like Israel Houghton or Casting Crowns. 

     But in same time, I wish I can praise God with my whole heart, 

     not only when I am having hard time. I learned skill is not as importand as a heart of worship.

6. President Roh died today. Well, I don't like that guy, but I feel bad that he commit

    suicide. I think there is a chance that someone might kill him. Oh well, only God knows.

7. Now on Diet. Time to loose some weight. Goal is 180 lb. 30 lb to go.

8. I will live my life as happy as I can. I notice that I am really sad person. hahaha..

9. Number 9.. I got nothing to write. hahahahaha.. o well. 

no more peterpan.

I am learning responsiblity.

So hard. So stressful. Well, now I need to be grow up.

No more peterpan life. 

Say so

I wish I can sing.

Lyrics for SAY SO (Key E)
Chords - Here (Praise Charts Preview mode)

Verse1
What does it mean to be save?
Isn't it more than just a prayer away?
More than just a way to heaven?
What does it mean to be here?
To be full in His likeness
To know that we have a purpose

Pre Chorus
To be salt and light in the world (in the world)
To be salt and light in the world

Chorus
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so
Let the redeemed of the Lord say so
Say So! Say So!
(Repeat)

Verse2
Oh that the Church will arise
Oh that we would see with Jesus eyes
We could show the world heaven
Show what it means to be His
To be full in His likeness
Show them they have a purpose

Bridge
I am redeemed (6x)
To be salt and light in the world (6x)

Chorus2
Let the redeemed of the Lord rise up
Let the redeemed of the Lord rise up
Let the redeemed of the Lord rise up
Rise Up! Rise Up!

Lots of confusion.

I am confusing, as always.

I know you are here.

God, lead me to the right place.

He's turned my mourning. Into dancing again. He's lifted my sorrows

"He's turned my mourning Into dancing again. He's lifted my sorrows"

My life is full of tiring, disappointing, sorrorw, anger, hopeless

But you know what? God turn my mourning into dancing.

My situation, nothing is changed. Still there are so much problems and trouble.

But, all day today, somehow, I was thinking about my entire life, 

I notice that God lead me all the way here U.S.

Before I meet my God, Gradewise, I was good student. But I wasn't a good student, morally.

I smoked like no other, two packs a day. 

I drank like no other, I don't even know how much I can handle.

Hang out with whole bunch of bad people. 

I had no English skill to live in United States.

I never expected got into the university I go to.

I never expected to lead praise even in United States.

I never expected that I can quit smoking drinking and all the stupid stuff.

I never expected to find good friends in this country or anywhere.

I never expected anything about my life. 
I am not even worthy to have all these things.

But "God"... with his unconditional love,

he healed my wounds, he wiped my tears, and he was always with me. 

Even though, I was messed up, he was with me. and He is with me.

Sometimes I never can understand what God do something to me,

But now, I know. Even though God gave me pain and suffering, 

that was always for greater things. I actually grew more.

My Second year. I was a praise team leader in KCCC. and I quit.

No one's decision, it was mine. I decided to leave. And I leave ministry.

I leave God. I stopped praise God with my guitar. I stopped pray.

I stopped. Yes, I believe he was there. But I stopped trust him.

I was mad. I was mad about my decision, and I was so mad about situation I was going through.

I went to church. Nothing was there. I could not feel God's gentle touch anymore.

I was mad. It was my darkest part of my life.

But even though I was stop trust him, he trusted me, and he trained me. 

He trained my phychological strength, he tought me what is right or wrong and he trained me in different ways.

Lots of stuff happen. My grandmother died. I went back to ministry to just find God. 

I needed something I can rely on. But no, He was not there. He was not in KCCC, He was not in Church,

He was not in Children's Ministry. The God who I was looking for was not there. 

But soon, I noticed that He was always right next to me.

Although, I cannot see my future cleary, he was leading me in right place.

Now, I am leading praise again with more prepared heart, 

He provided me great people, and most importantly, now I know God is holding my hand,

and I know he will never leave me for sure. Thank you God.

I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you” (Josh. 1:5)

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K-pop and some of my talking.

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Live Winamp Radio Broad Casting + Podcast

I decide that I will start private broadcasting again.

I did this like 3 years ago. It was really fun, and I want to do it again.

And Finally I got my good sound card and mics, I will start again.

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2009.5.2 타협

내 이름은 전동희, 전동희이다.

나는 환경이라는 거짓들 속에 

너무나도 쉽게, 너무나도 간단히 타협(折)하고 있지 않은가?
너무나도 가볍게, 꺾여버려지고 있지 않은가?

언제부터일까? 

나는 내 목소리(言)를 잃었으며, 내 이름(名)을 잃고, 

나의 손으로 내 눈을 찌르고, 마지막 남은 내 시(詩)까지 버렸다. 

모든 외적인 것들을 마치 아침에 일어나 밥을 먹듯 타협하고 있다.

나이를 먹은 탓인지, 그렇기에 너무나 약해진 탓인지.

그렇게 모든 것에 순응하고 타협하는 내 자신이 싫다.

이 미친 세상에 엎드러지고, 게다가 약간의 만족까지 하고 있는

다른 이들과 같은 나의 모습이 싫다. 

그리고 결심한다. 이 한껏 미쳐버린 세상으로부터

다시 나의 목소리를, 나의 이름을, 나의 눈을, 나의 시를 돌려받을것을.

그래, 내 이름은 전동희, 전동희이다.